“The Lord spoke to Moses saying, “Speak to Aaron and his sons, saying, ‘Thus you shall bless the people of Israel: you shall say to them, the LORD bless you and keep you; the LORD make his face to shine upon you and be gracious to you; the LORD lift up his countenance upon you and give you peace.’ SO shall they put my name upon the people of Israel and I will bless them.” (Numbers 6:22-27)
I pulled over to the side of the road and sat. I pressed my face up against the window feeling utter despair. The sky was grey and overcast, again. But more than the grey sky was on my mind. Nothing seemed to be getting through to him. I had exhausted all methods of communication. Suddenly, as I sat looking out the window, I felt a warmth spread across my face. The sun had poked through the clouds. A smile spread across my face as I let the sun’s rays warm me.
As I sat there soaking in the sun, I remembered a verse, “…the LORD make his face to shine upon you and be gracious to you; the LORD lift up his countenance upon you and give you peace.’ So shall they put my name upon the people of Israel and I will bless them.” (Numbers 6:22-27)
I eagerly prayed this blessing over myself, “Lord shine your face on me, you hear my heart with these matters.” I continued to pray over the areas of our marriage where we weren’t seeing eye to eye. I prayed specific prayers of restoration. I finished praying and resumed my journey, speaking out the truth, “Lord, I feel your favor. I feel your face shining upon me. I AM a Beloved Child of God. You desire this more than ANYONE for our marriage.
When I got home that night, I fell back into the same pouting pattern. I was tired of trying to communicate my needs. As I sat there ruminating, Jamie sat next to me. “Hey Babe, Do you think we should read a marriage devotional tonight?” I nodded my head yes. As he pulled up the devotional and read it, it immediately pierced my heart. The devotional used the exact words I had prayed earlier that day. Every single prayer that I had prayed in the car was in the devotional. My eyes began to tear up. “I get it Lord, more dependence on You, less dependence on me. You care for me, Lord. There needs to be less words, more prayer.” God cares so much about us, and our marriages. He should be the first One we run to for help because, “Oh how he loves us.”